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4:30 p.m. - 8-12-2001
Alive, Well, and finally updating.
"I've got sunshine in a bag..."
Ok, so I lied, sort of. I was going to update while in Wisconsin, just never did. I was pretty busy though, so anyone with smart remarks can just feck off.
It occurred to me while away on work how fucked up relationships have become in this day and age. Or then again, maybe it's just me and my small-town down-home upbringing. I had always felt that if you felt strongly enough for someone that you were willing to take the major step of marriage, that that meant you'd be honest and faithful to that person. After what I bore witness to the last two weeks of July, I must have been reading from the "old version" of "Life".
Ok, I'll admit while I was toolin' around the sprawling Metropolis of Oshkosh Wisconsin that on occasion I would see a woman, be it a check out girl at Staples, a waitress at Applebee's, or someone wandering around the airshow grounds, and I would have thoughts run through my mind like "I'd like to bend her over the extra bed in my room and make her scream for an hour or two" or some such...but that was it. It was a thoght, quickly turned this way and that in my imagination and then discarded. That was the extent of it and that was as far as I had ever planned to take it. Apparently, my co-workers are running with the "updated edited version" of the relationship book.
Two of my co-workers, who will remain nameless because, to me, they're still good people despite their transgressions, were openly having affairs while we were there working. Another co-worker was openly flirtatious and very very aggressive with such comments as "I'm married, but when I'm away, I'm single, I'm not a couple." He even ended up spending our last night there in a bed with two "college age girls", but nothing happened, they just watched TV and talked. Yeah, right.
Am I the only one with any type of a conscience left in this world? Yes, I'll admit, there are times when I feel that being married is a burden and that I'd love to, just once, set it aside and nail this nice young lady who's caught my eye, but that feeling doesn't last. I think of my wife and my kids and the damage that can be caused and I realize that it's not worth it.
It just annoys me that I'm the one who behaves, I'm the nice one, the good one, the faithful one, but I'm looked upon by all the others as the "oddball". Since when did being morally correct for once (because I'm ususally not) become a bad thing. Fucks with your mind, it does.
Well, on a brighter side, the wife and I have finally found a place to move that we're really happy with. The wife stumbled upon a 3 BR 2½ bath townhouse that is expensive but affordable, and we've already put down a partial deposit. I got a great bonus for my work at Oshkosh and I'm also working from home now (not 100% officially, but we're working on that too), so we're just waiting for the landlord to let us know when we can give him the rest of his deposit. The place needs a little work, mainly carpet cleaning and the like, but it's a definite step (or three) up from where we are now. Hell, the wife loved it when it was still in need of paint and smelling of dog piss/shit. Just think how she's going to feel when it's cleaned. We're planning on moving within the next week or so.
Well, I think I might actually be back...for a bit at least. Had a nasty problem with my work computer and ended up formatting it and then spent 3 days trying to get back up and running and online, but now I'm back. We'll see how things go. Catch ya later.
